Mortally wounded: Freed from war, trapped by depression

Me here just to say: goddam mutha fruitcakes and pie with shitsu puppies. Gahh!! This couldnt get any worse:
- Georgia isnt in my class next year
- The only class I have with her is Japanese. Well, at least now theres something to look forward to.
- Britt, Bec, Angela and T.A. arent in my class either.
- I have ms venna for science AGAIN!!
- Im so frustrated I cant even get my zappo packet open. I need my thinking lollies!!
- My eyes are itchy.
- I have to dress up as a giant witches hat tomorrow for our house athletics: Saftey Saints. Woohoo, what brainiac made that one up?!!
- Another someone bagged my music today!! Actually, make that 4 someones.
- My glasses are dirty.
- DAT testing was stupid. Who the hell spent their time in making those stupid things where you have to find the pattern (only an example; could be exaggerated): first box- single dot. Second box- two dots. Third box- five dots, two crosses and four squiggly lines. Fourth box- three dots. Whats the next box gonna have in it? A. a square. B. a triangle. C. two ovals. Or D. a single line. -.-
- I dont have enough money at the moment.
- I just had dinner and its 5:30.
- I have another 4 hours to kill.
- I havent asked my grandparents if I can go out with my friend on Friday and its Wednesday night and ive already told my friend that im going.
- I finally got that zappo packet open and it tastes like crap. How do you people like this stuff?
- I think im grinding my teeth, but I could be wrong.
- Georgia got to talk about yum-yum trees in geography when we had to talk about the effects of World War 1.
- Georgia gets to go on an excursion to pick strawberries and taste cheese in first semester when there actually ARE strawberries and we get to go in winter when there are just twigs and possibly leaves. If were lucky, we might see a green strawberry.
- Cheese just doesnt float my boat.
- Im in a pretty good class, except Georgia, Britt, Bec, Angela, T.A. and ..the funny one arent in it. They couldnt even split us evenly. Our class feels like normal 9Z and everyones just away. :'( not happy.

Im so downhearted at the moment. I wanna throw something at someone/ something, in a non-violent way, that is. I liked shouting at that person who didnt like slipknot; I dont even know her name, but she took my mind off thinking about my year 10 class. Im going to play spider solitaire and possibly read lord of the flies; I just wanna read the part where they supposedly eat each other.

Me.

Dont be scared, its not too bad to read.. I hope

Howdeh,

Well, after spending some time with my 3, nearly 4 year old cousin, I had a little insight to his little world. Apart from sounding like a full dweeb at the moment, and the fact that hes sooo cute, I just wanna say, I WANNA LIVE IN HIS WORLD!! A world where theres nothing more important than finding out WHY everything works the way it does. A world where making no sense when you talk is normal. A world where it is totally acceptable to take half an hour to eat a slice of nutellad bread. A world where you can go and take a piss in front of everyone and still keep normal conversation going. A world where everything is new and exciting. A world where you can be content in just simply sitting and watching the world go by. A world without a care.

Sure im not under any real stress, if any at all. Heck, all im worried about is missing the bus tomorrow, but thats not the point. Imagine what itd be like to be little again. Jaja, im still little; I meant younger. A second go at life I guess. I dno if id do it any different the second time around, if I had the chance. I cant remember that many mistakes ive made, at the moment, but then again, I cant remember much. Blah. Jaja, I dont want another go at life, I just want to be younger again. Life was so much fun. I used to get excited about going to school. I used to get excited about going to the park. I used to get excited about going down a slide. I used to get excited. Another thing that sucks about being older is that life just speeds away like a p-plater (supposedly). 10 minutes used to be a long time!! I mean, I thought I was just typing the words: yay, its nearly the holidays. But the only thing is, that was LAST holidays, which seem like yesterday. Its that time AGAIN!! Not that I hate holidays or anything, but I thought I just started year 9. Bloody, im in year 10 in 2 days!! Bajesus!! I remember year 3 stretching for years!!

He, my little cousin, was happy playing with trains and trucks all day with me. For petes sake, the train track HASNT since the last time you went around it, and it wont change!! But I guess small things amuse small minds.

Dyu know what my brother said to me the other day that I couldnt get outta my head?: what happened to you? He said that after listening to some of my music. Everyone thinks im a weirdo. Well not everyone, and maybe not a weirdo, but along those lines. I mean I used to listen to the radio, think linkin park were scary and think English was fun. I dont think ive changed heaps or anything; the only things are that I listen to rock, turned a little pessimistic and dont appreciate school as much as I used to, but no one can blame me can they? Erhh, crazy uncle at it again, and hes not even a blood relative. Now ive lost my train of thought. Train of thought? Who thinks up these things? Truck of thought; thoughts are noisy and arent as fast as trains.

Ok then. Im seriously thinking of writing into the youth forum in the newspaper coz ive only read one really good entry before, and it really made me laugh. Here it is, by memory: why is it that when any young person dies, they were always cheerful, popular and had a bright future? Being dull, no real expectations with few friends makes me feel a little safer. Ahh, gotta love it. Some other bright spark wrote in and said he/she was sick of seeing the same crap every week. You go girl, only problem is that you havent brought anything new onto the plate. A way to fix that would be to complain about what goes in the newspaper and suggest something else: blah blah, smoking is mentioned too much, so is the Iraqi war blah blah. Well, what could I write if I chose to write to them. Or possibly email them.

Maybe I could say something lame like everyone else: theres too much rubbish, too much homework, too much smoking blah blah. Omg, brainwave. I could say something about how learners shouldnt have to wait until theyre 17 to get their learners. I mean, arent there just as many dangerous adult drivers? They cant discriminate against us youths like that!! Outrageous. Foomph. Is that decided then? What else could I write to them about? They should bring back banana man. Lol, I loved that show. I could complain that theres not enough gay people on TV. Some brainiac suggested a way to save water. Maybe I could complain about how hard the works getting. Nah, thatd lead onto the whole too much homework thing that everyone talks about. Or maybe I could just not complain at all. I could say John Howard is the coolest man on earth.. thatd go down well. I could say what a good job people are doing with saving water.. Nah, complainings so much more interesting.

Well I know youre all dying to know about my day coz im just that interesting. Well fujiko, Vicky, jong and I went to the city, mainly to buy school books for next year. Well we did that then had a look at the gardens for no apparent reason and we got some free food!!(highlight of my day) ill give it a plug here, coz you all live in Melbourne and really like greasy azn noodles: Yen sushi noodle 12 Centre Place Melbourne. But you cant just rock up and expect some free stuff, I only got the free food coz fujiko knew the owners. And thanks for the free lunch, I didnt get to say it in person coz it was too busy. Anywho, moving away from the free food, we went to south yarra, land of the rich people, and had a look around. We went into smiggle, I LOVE that place, and that KK something-something at Chadstone. For those who dont know its just a shop with really cool stationery. I got a clock for my Kris Kringle person. Pretty cool stuff. And dyu know what?!! That’s for my school KK, my KK for home, coz were all cheapos, is ANDY!! My auntys boyfriend!! Of all the people in the family. I hardly even know him. Oh well, all I know is that he has an R33 (!!) and hes Christian. And he likes the counting crows. Hmph.

Well we visited the Japanese bookshop before that. I understand my other friends complaints at that because everythings, well, Japanese.. I have nothing against japs, but if you cant understand it, then why bother? Jaja, outta line, ok ill go back in my hole. And alans obsession with sushi is kinda scary. I dont even like sushi. Hah, he woulda physically kicked me off the train if id said it out loud. Yeah, back to Japanese books, umm well yeah. theyre Japanese. Cartoon pornos. Ahah.. hah.. ok, don’t bite my head off. Anywho we went into this other shop called dreams or something. Pretty cool. I wanted these cool spikey earrings that were dangly and silver and.. youd probably have to see it to get it, but they were awesome!! And $10. was I being a cheapo? Nah, I only have $50 to last me 2 weeks and CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! Yay, omg, im so excited!! I love Christmas, and bad as it sounds, I love the presents. But all is not bad, I like to give them too. I love writing out Christmas cards and all that!! so much fun. It’s a time when you go all selfless and buy stuff for OTHERS. Not an everyday thing. Dyu reckon its better to know whos buying something for you in KK or not? Coz we just got who we had to get a present for and my friend flick just comes bouncing up to me and said, I got you for KK, what dyu want.. hmm, great surprise there. Oh well, the person im buying for doesnt know yet.

Wow, dyu know what? This is nearly the end of the 4th page on word. Yay. Hopefully theres someone reading this or else itd be a waste of my time.. moof, oh well. I might read it later. I mean if my memory gets wiped out then I could read this and have my thinking patterns back.. well it sounds like people are coming upstairs soon and theyre those kinda people thatd think its weird to write in an online diary without the internet. Well ill post it on later and hopefully it wont be too boring. Wow, if MSN was here, I wouldntve gotten past one page. Goes to show I can be half decent sometimes.

Kimo

Word count: 1516

Sorry for the lack of posting; no available internet

Hallo,
This is being typed on word, again. Yes, Im at my grandparents place on their computer with no internet. W00t. anywho, I have to remember to not use any apostrophes or anything coz theyll look like this: “ or ‘ jaja, you get what I mean. Anyway, without the distraction of MSN there might be something a little more interesting than before. So, here goes.

Well. Hello? Inspiration? Well, why dont I talk about one of the most dragged out show on Australian television. Australian idol. God, it took them about 4 hours of: the winner will be announced very shortly.. very, very soon.. a couple of minutes.. well I sat from about 8 till 10:30. I thought they were gonna announce it around 9 or 9:30. but that was too hopeful of me. I dont even normally watch oz idol. Its stupid, well it has been since Marty got booted out. I was disappointed at the final two, but im glad Casey won over Anthony, but thats only coz no one was going for her and everyone thought Anthony was going to win. Ahh, the sweet smell of surprise. I sat there for a couple of seconds after they had FINALLY announced the winner, then I jumped up and messaged Wendy: ahaha, IN YOUR FACE!! Well they laughed at me when Marty, the only half decent singer in the whole competition, got voted out.

Look at me, talking about AUSTRALIAN IDOL like this. I was the one who wrote a speech at the start of the year on how stupid reality TV is. But it is. You cant get away from it these days. Either reality TV or crap TV. I was nearly driven insane over one Saturday night when absolutely NOTHING was on. Like seriously, Mary poppins or the wizard of oz. Great choice guys. Shame on those TV people, I mean theyve also dragged out the final friends episodes to near insanity: 3rd last ever friends show..2nd last ever friends.. ONE HOUR special finale. Oo, yay, cant wait.. jeez, get over it and just SHUT UP. Who cares about friends? Well millions.. but thats not the point.

I say they should cut all this crap and bring back banana man, power rangers, pizza cats and just make ABC channel a full 24 hour rage-fest; music all day. Except I stayed up late one night and I saw some pretty weird shit. Like: I love acid, I love acid, I love acid.. you get the drift. But also, on that note I also have something to say about the stuff thats being shown on TV and played on the radio. Well, I have no sympathy for you people that actually listen to the stuff on the radio, its your choice, but I have to strongly disagree with the choices. Eminem was number one on the charts for petes sake!! –who Pete is, I dno. Im not saying its all crap, but whats all the fuss about delta goodrem? Shes not that good a singer. And neither are Hilary duff, avril lavigne or ashlee Simpson. They claim to be *open talking marks* punk *close talking marks* chicks who are so hardcore and make up their own rules. God, you couldnt tell by the way they moan though..

Moving on, whats there to do these days? I mean sure, lets go to the city. The only problem is what do you do once youre in the city? We were thinking possibly the movies or bowling or something, but I was thinking something totally out of the blue like why dont we go to the zoo or something. Great plan in my head but everyone gave me a funny look. Oh well, movies or bowling will have to do then, well leave the zoo for another day. I have a whole day ahead of me. Dyu know I had $2 bread today. Only thing was that it was $2.60. why does everything have to go more and more expensive? And average house, by the time im old enough to get my own will be about $million. Thats not a good thing by the way. That goes back to our plan of going into the city. Everythings expensive. Just go to springy and you can get it for cheap. Fobbiness included. Im not making any sense am I? Of course not, who does these days? Moof. Why dont I just get a farm and live off that? ..coz id go quietly insane. Thats not a good thing either. I have to disagree with those that want to live in the city. I went there for a week, not even to live and I could have gone quietly insane. All the people!! I hate people!! Well not really, but so many at a time can easily make you insane. Im really liking the word insane. Bajesus. Can I make my own dictionary? The Australian Kimo dictionary:

Bajesus (n.): a general exclamation, could be blasphemous.
Ding (n.): an exclamation of excitement or joy.
Insane (adj.): 1) cool 2) not cool
Jaja (n.): to understand
Kapoof (v.): to vanish; to go someplace else.
Moof (n.): a general exclamation or sigh.
Well, 6 words. Thats a start. Making a dictionary doesnt necessarily mean you have to make up all the words in it does it? Well anymore good words are welcome.

My uncles kinda weird at the moment. Hes like singing at the top of his voice in Viet. Thats different. Well, im off to watch toy story with my little cousin. Yay -.-

Kimo

Word count: 932

Can you hear the music?

well hi, me again.

thankyou to the -cough- comments. it's nice to get feedback on what you write. except i don't think mrs i-think-all-your-work-is-crap-and-will-give-you-a-crappy-mark Massey gets it. "guesswork to find which poems you wrote" WELL IF YOU'D'VE OPENED THE BOOK TO THE FIRST PAGE, YOU MAY, JUST MAY HAVE SEEN MY NAME KIMBERLEY a.k.a. KAETI!! jesus christ. phoomph. pissed off, but i'll get over it.

And how the hell dyu make something fun outta maths? i mean we're in a bloody seating plan and get told to shuttup for every little sound we make. well, i'm probably just a bitter old teenager. anywho, what's so funny? i don't get it. jaja, i know all that "think positive" stuff, but i don't think it works for me. somehow, a lot of the positive stuff i say comes out sarcastic, even if i didn't mean it to be... the usual. But i don't mind being pessimistic, it gives me something to contemplate on.

And i do realise that there's only 3 years left. and yes, i have started to freak out. i'm bloody doing VCE jap next year and while trying to suck in the new stuff she's giving us, I TUNE OUT!! of all things. and then i went all unco and couldn't concentrate. hopefully that was just a once off thing that WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN. hopefully. so hopefully i won't end up on the streets. i go through this whole "school sucks" thing, but when i actually think about it, school's not bad and i don't REALLY mind it that much. it's stupid what kind of stuff we have to do. the government can just shove it.

oh, but this blog IS useless!! and it doesn't matter what kind of language i use here. coz i don't care and i don't think you do either.

And everyone's used that "i hate slipknot" thing. we, fans, just get a little defensive, as it's turned out to be an everyday thing to be bagged about our music. oh well, the converting thing hasn't worked very well. wendy, angel and them still don't like it. well, that's their loss.

well i really don't have anything to say. i was just curious to what everyone else had to say. did you know, of ALL the blog's out there, mine's the ONLY one that doesn't work on the school computers!! stupid tacky pieces of crap. and dyu know what i've found one of the most challenging things in the world?!! sitting down in a mini skirt. god, you either have to sit like a demented chicken or say hello to the world..

well i smell food so i'll be off.

Kimo

Round 2: kimo vs computer

yah. second go at this. well i can't remember half of what i rambled on last time, but i'll try. here it is:

dyu know how boring i've become lately? i mean i used to be FUNNY, INTERESTING. god, what happened? i dno and i'm not liking it. i mean i would've made at least one joke no matter how lame it was it that space above, but there isn't one! at all. dammit. so here's me being unoriginal again and complain about how hard it is to be a teenager in this day and age.

can someone please tell me what the point in learning theories about space and science and crap if they may not even be true? i mean for all we know, we could just be figments of each other's imaginations. Why the hell do we need to know what a star sounds like or whatever the hell they're trying to shove into our small little minds. And what's so good about the moon?!! yay, some people spent millions and millions of dollars to land on some stupid lump of dust that only serves to reflect light from the sun at night, if it actually does that at all. i mean, who knows, maybe it lights up at night and that shit about reflecting light is all wrong. HOW DO WE KNOW?!! and woddup with learning about history? world war 1 and all that shit. i mean we can't change the wrongdoings of our ancestors. it's not our problem. geez, go did THEM up and shout/curse/whatever you feel like at them. And why the hell do we need to KNOW all this crap. "so you don't make the same mistakes". oh really? whoops i accidently killed a whole nation with my army that i keep in my garden for self defense. damn, it's a shame i forgot all that stuff in history. -.- or perhaps, oh, i forgot that it's wrong to take over countries. jesus christ.

and what's the use in learning how to measure, of ALL things, TRIANGLES. oh yeah, pass me that sin45 triangle. coz u know, i really would like to know all of it's angles and the length of all it's sides. And dyu know what else fascinates me? surds!! yay, let's just learn allllll about these stupid little square root shits that have NOTHING to do with anything. oh, i really would like to know the square root of 72. oh, look, it can be SIMPLIFIED to 6 square root 2. man, it turns me on hardcore. -.- jesus christ, what was up these peoples ass when they figured these useless things out. god, WHO GIVES A?!!

while i'm at it, what the fuck is a passive voice? why the hell would we need to know how to spell perjuries? what the fuck is a "perjuries" in the first place?!! And what's the use of learning how to critisise a POEM. for bloody pete's sake. "what's the difference between stanza 2 and 3?" THE FUCKIN DIFFERENCE IS THAT THE PERSON'S HEAD GOT SHOVED FURTHER UP THEIR ASS!! geez, i don't know, i don't fuckin care. the stupid thing, not that this WASN'T stupid before, is that you end up writing some lame rambling answer that has nothing to do with the actual topic just coz you dno what the hell they're going on about. sure, why not?

what else can i sledge? far out. one thing that has nothing to do with school. SLIPKNOT'S PLAYING AT BIG DAY OUT!!!!!!! does that sound like i'm at all pumped for it? yeah, the only problem is I'M NOT ALLOWED TO FUCKIN GO!!! 1. there's a pretty big chance that there'll be freaky druggies/alcoholics/people like me (assuming everyone thinks like wendy's mum; i hang around a place known for it's druggies ONCE in a while, so OBVIOUSLY i'm a druggie. in the meantime, SHE practically lives next door). 2. It's $103. 3. no one wants to come with me. 4. repeat from 1. sure, i can easily say: what can possibly go wrong. hah. bad mistake: rape, drugs, rape, alcohol, rape, murder, rape, kidanapping, rape, sex and possibly, rape. well, that's coming from my paranoid parents. -cough-

well, funnily enough, i have other stuff i probably should do. food, t.v., bed are some of the many things awaiting me.. as well as a pile of unstudied crap. so, this is my departure, "latahz"
kimo

Mutha funky, i can't think of a title

man. second time around. my computer just restarted without even asking me!! funky. hah, funky. that's just as good as yesh. ahahahaha. hmmm, maybe i'll go on a high. ahahahaha. nya nya. lol. ok, that's not working. I really want to say something intellectual and funny or at least interesting. man. i'm outta whack. i'm always outta whack. HAH, I'M IN THE LIGHT!! I'M IN VCE JAP!! go me. yay. hmm. over it. >< <-attention span. moof. moof man strikes. yahaha. hallucinations of life. me. wow. i'm sleepy. ok, i know boring, jaja. well thats just me. hmmmm. mmmh. sooo bored. why aren't i funny? well i guess it might be coz my parents aren't. they're not too interesting either. hmm, runs in the family i guess. what to do..? what is there to do? have i already asked these stupid questions before? total dejavou. i probably got through this everymonth. hmmpph. let's talk japanese. watashi wa tsumaranai desu yo. juuni ji ni nemasu. gohon gohon. over it. ahh. i luv that evermore song. and ston sour!! awesome. actually, that should've been stonE sour. moof. moof man strikes again. ding. has anyone seen jim and dom from syn tv/ synFM? ahaha, they're funny lassies, lads. who the hell knows the female form of lad. lol, laddy? female of boar? boaress? meh, who cares. not me

second paragraph. foof. hah, female version of moof. the sky will never look the same again, tell you show how this could be...ahhh. i like that song. anywhos. never download anything recommended by anyone unless it's in enlgish. i don't trust that kinda music. freaks me out. well done for reading upto here. lol, i doubt anyone just read that statement i just made. ahaha, me funny no one hear it. hah, i not funny at all. woOO000oo00ohoOOOooOOooOOoo00Oo0ooOO. that's someone singing a woohoo in a song. you know how it goes high and low and stuff. yeah. me so cool . moof. moof man strikes again . ding . double spacing..who woulda thought of it . well im gonna fall asleep right here so i think i'll go crawl into bed now,

Kimo

Moof man!!

howdy all,
Thanx for the comments. yeah, the quiz is gone and too bad if you missed it. hah. is anyone sick of my ranting and complaining? well you really don't need to read from HERE if you are coz i'm in a pretty ranty mood. anyways, dyu know what i'm soooo sick of?!! tests, exams, school, the usual. but you know what else? has anyone seen that show called "brat camp" where unbehaving, drug-taking, angry teens go into the middle of nowhere to fix themselves up? well one of those girls had a whole wall of posters and that included slipnot and stuff. not the point. my point is that i have slipknot posters on my wall, for a while actually, and my mum steps into my room for like the first time in a year or so and she suddenly realises what kind of posters i actually have on my wall. now she thinks i take drugs and crap just coz i listen to slipknot. gah. and my dad, i can't believe it, but he said: there are better looking people out there. omfg, that's not nice. lol, and playing in the background was Korn singing" ..why do these little girls make me feel so goddam exhilerated..." well, i really don't care if they don't like slipknot. stupid people.

...Oh yeah, i still didn't finish what i'm sick of. I'm sick of all the stress at the moment. i'm sick of being uptight and biting peoples heads off. do you know how long it's been since i've been on a high?!! too long. well not much doing. i'm actually not really in a very good ranting mood. i'm just tired and could do with some sleep. sleep and food are one of my favourite things in the world and i haven't been getting a lot of it lately. well major jap exams over so maybe it'll all be good tonight. as in, i'll be able to eat dinner and go to sleep at my normal time. i like my full 8+ hours of sleep. picky picky, i know but i just can't function very well on less than 8 hours. hmmm, schools nearly finished for the year. yay!! i just hope i'm in a good class next year. or, good classes. hopefully i get into the VCE jap class. i'll be pissed if i don't.

ok, i know i'm being really boring, ya ya i know i know, i'm a boring person. mmmmmm. nooothing to say. damn, my bro's kicking me off. oh, and if you're reading this josh dude, i really can't find the slipknot link, but add me to MSN, if you have it and i'll send you a pic of sid and corey, if you want. but how do u know if tat's really them? could just be some pricks pretending that's them. well i gotta go now, bro cracking the shits. stupid fuck. well, cyaz
Kimo

Homework makes us fat

Im not gonna say sorry to those people mentioned in the previous post because they deserve everything ive sed. But im over it. Ive been too stressed out to bother about them. And thanx for the comments people.

Phew. Im so glad my science test is ova coz i crammed a whole chapter so hard into my head the night before that it started leaking out by first period. Luckily it was in 2nd period, or else i wouldve lost it all. My moods were kinda scary. I went from hysterical panic to freakish calm, then bak to hysterical. Still, i wonder what i got. I really tried. Like i REALLY tried learning when the teacher..err. .taught it? to us, but i mean seriously, how big does your attention span have to be when she’s talking about photosynthesis and respiration? Well the only bit that got into my head was that fruits are swollen ovaries and that wasnt even relevant. Mmm, well it ova now, so im glad.

But that’s not the end of it. we now have all these tests and exams and orals and crap. I know i shouldnt complain, coz everyone from otha schools have to do exams on all their subjects, but i still think that its stupid that we have 2 science lessons to learn about astronomy. We have 2 lessons to learn about all of world war 1. what else thats stupid is that we are gettin tests that we don’t even know whats on it. like pe theory. We havent even LEARNT anything, so how r we gonna get tested on it? huh? Answer me THAT!! Stupid conspiracy to get us all. Hmph, paranoia strikes, JK JK.

You know what i find stupid? Amongst otha things; spending heaps on education. Private schooling. Ok, i know i go to a private school, but i still think it’s a stupid waste of money. Money that could easily be spent elsewhere. I mean i could be talking extreme when i say this, but there ARE starving kids in 3rd world countries. I mean all up itd nearly be 100K. !))K!!
Well that confirms it, schools a waste of time. Hang on, i mean PRIVATE schools a waste of money. hah. Id rather be a dum cunt than spend that much on schooling. Its all going to the principals cars anyway. Stupid fag.

Kimo.

Official hate letter to the world

So u thought the other post was a hate letter to the world..

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!!! Fuck. Fuck it all. This is the 3rd time I've tried to publish this post and it's not working. MUTHA FUCKIN PIECE OF SHIT!! If you can't tell, I'm in a fuckin pissy bad mood and it's not funny. Jesus Christ, why can't you leave me alone?!! I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WOT U WANNA DO WITH UR LIFE!! And if u wants a fuckin holiday, GO ON ONE!! And if ur gonna worry, FUCK OFF TO SUMWHERE ELSE, somewhere where I can't hear you. People like you were made to be seen and not heard. AND MY FUCKIN PRINTER HAS NO BLACK INK!! What the fuck is this world coming to?!! Mutha fucka. AND MY BRO DOESN'T NEED A WIFE YET!! Jesus Christ.

Ok, I need to chill a bit, BUT IT DOESN'T HELP IF YOU'RE BREATHING DOWN MY BACK TELLING ME TO STUDY!! No, funnily enough, it doesn't help and it'd be nice IF YOU STOPPED. I'm sick of hearing you say: I'm counting on you kim, u need to do well in your exams, but there's no pressure, just do your best. MY FUCKIN BEST ISN'T AS GOOD AS YOU THINK IT IS!! Fuckin hell. AND THE FUCKIN CREAM ON THIS CAKE IS MAKING MY TEETH FEEL FUNNY!! Fuckin goddam, get a life. i played doctor for 5 minutes, before I cut my heart open and let the air out.. broke away my tears as I lie there.. I wasn't much fun to be around with anyway.. biding my time until the time is right..<- slipknot song that should make me feel better. Once again, if you see fuckin things like this: … it's coz im doing this on word coz YOU won't let me have a comp in my room, coz u just KNOW that I'll look up porn and go into chatrooms and give away my number and address to strange people who claim they're 14 but know all the different positions and how good it feels coz they've fucked sumone exactly 56 times. Jesus Christ, ur always praising me for crap and saying that im smart but you think im THAT dumb? Shit, I hate it when you're so fuckin paranoid. I'LL FUCKIN GIVE them A PIECE OF MY MIND BEFORE THEY THINK ABOUT GETTING INTO MY PANTS, OK?!!

And the rest of you aren't any better. Sure, go runaway with ur bigshot boyfriend and leave me all alone, why don’t you. I'd like to see that fuckin work out. like full serious. Next time ur shoving ur tongues down each other's throats, I hope you choke. Then that might give you the sickening feeling I'm having at the sight of you. And fuckin ignore me one more time and I dno how much longa this'll last. *filthy look* dumb cunts. And I only wanna be friends, wot the hell r u wanting? 9 out of 10 times ur talking, I'm not listening. Fuckin touch me again and I'll fuckin kick ur ass to whoop whoop. But, oh, what’s this? WE'RE ALREADY IN FUCKIN WHOOP WHOOP!! fuckin bullshit. God. Fuckin don't talk to me on MSN then. Don't answer my messages. Don't bother talking to me. Don't bother telling me anything, I'll hear about it in the end anyway. Just fuckin leave me alone. With all your stupid nagging and TALKING to me, I'm sick of it all.

Jesus Christ, what would it be like to runaway. Great, if you had cash. Not so great if you're trying to runaway from life. My anthology of bitter poems name's Prisoner of life. I thought of that all by myself. But that's not the point. How nice would it be to have no restraints. No nagging people like you. no one to piss you off but yourself. People taking their time out to worry about you. Hah. That'd be grouse, wouldn't it. But then they'd find you. They always do. Then you'll be in deep shit. Then it starts all over again, but worse than before. No thanks, I prefer how it is rather than any worse.

You know what I really hate about you? When you get drunk. Jesus Christ, if it's anything like last time, I'll runaway for sure. Jesus Christ I you haven't caught on, I'm rambling on about different people that are pissing me off at the moment. There isn't one huge stupid mutha fuckin cunt out there. You all are stupid mutha fuckin cunts. And I’m glad I pissed you off the other day. I hope I made you feel like shit coz you make me feel like that more than you think. Yeah, go do drugs stupid mofo. Go do all that u fuckin skank. I wonder if anyone actually read that other post of mine. Thanks a lot guys. Jesus Christ, no one did read it, isn't it? Well Im probably the paranoid one now. jesus Christ, I better not turn into you. I'd rather die.

And you know what else?!! I hate it when you say shit like: I'm tired. I'm sick. I'm so worried.. jesus, I don't give a fuck!! I know I've already been through all this but it still hasn't left me. I wanna throw something at you. Pass me the scissors dude. No, I'm not seriously gonna do it, dumb cunt. My bro took my compass. That looked therapeutical.

moving on, I think I've calmed down, but if this doesn’t save one more time, hell's gonna break loose. Yeah, shit happens, but so much at once? Jesus, maybe I should go back to pretending I believe in god. Maybe my life'll turn for the better. Jesus, I'm sick of saying I'm an atheist. It's branding me so badly, I give up. From now, I'm a Buddhist, ok? Yeah, like all those other full azns. I'll go that far, but don’t you dare drag me back to Christianity and it's stupid churches and blessing you with sum fuckin water from out the back that you claim is fuckin holy or sum shit. Sorry for the blasphemy. No, actually, I'm not sorry. Jesus, I'm not sorry for anything I've done. DEAL WITH IT!!

35 "fuck"s and anything related
14 "Jesus Christ"s and anything related
1064 words altogether

Kimo